Grrrr…
Still no Olive Garden for me… bleh. Plans keep changing. It now turns out that we’ll go tomorrow. I hope this is the last time plans change because I’m getting pissed.
Also, it turns out that my mom wants to wake me and my siblings up early so that we can go to church in the morning. I can’t believe she still forces me to go. It pisses me off that she doesn’t let me have control of what I should believe in.
I’ve been pissed off the whole day today. I couldn’t fall asleep last night. I got woken up after like 5 hours of sleep to babysit my cousin. Then I got about 1 more hour of sleep. Then I had to do all the chores in the house because my mom went to work and my sister had to go to some church thing all day. Then I wanted to shower, and after like 2 minutes in the shower I got kicked out by my dad because he needed to shower so that he could go to work. So I had to get out, wet, and I had to iron a shirt for him. Then it turns out that the church thing involved a meeting for the parents, but my parents couldn’t go so they made me do it. It lasted for two hours and honestly, I really didn’t have to be there. It was a talk for the parents and my parents would have had more benefit in going there than me. It was useless for me to be there.. it was a waste of my time. When I finally got home, like around 6 pm, I was hungry and then my mom comes home and makes me help her make dinner. I would have been happy to help her if she wasn’t being a bitch to me. I haven’t had the chance to work on my homework until after 7:30. I’m on a break right now. I really wanted to get started on my homework hours ago. But I didn’t get the chance. Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t start doing it today. I started working on it on Thursday, and I’m still continuing. I seriously need more time to finish it and my family is just taking my time away from me. How can they expect me to do well in school like this? And it’s not only today that I have had my time taken away from me.
I only have one class this semester, but it’s a 5 week class, so everything is rushed and compacted. My family thinks that just because I have one class, that I have all the time in the world to do the stuff they want me to do. It is not like that. Since the class is rushed, I have to be working everyday, outside of class, doing whatever I can do to get my work done. In case you’re wondering, it is speech class and right now I have to work on an 8 to 10 minute speech that was assigned to me on Tuesday… and it’s due Wednesday. I have to do research on it and right now I’m limited on time. I’m cramming as much time as I can on doing my work, and it’s taking a toll on me. Right now, I’ve spent an hour and a half just researching stuff and I’m tired of it. After this, I’ll do like 3 more hours.. hopefully. I’m thinking about getting a job, but I don’t have time for it. But I really need it because I want to move out of my parents’ house so that I could have some freedom and more time to study.
I’m in a tough situation right now, and it’s not only because of what happened today. It’s a whole mess of things that have been happening and I’m getting tired of everything. Sometimes I just feel like giving everything up and just crawling into bed and sleep… just sleep, with nothing to worry about, nothing to do, no getting pissed off, no stressing. I’ve been sick too, so some bed rest might be good for me. But no. I can’t. I have to finish my work, and I have to get through this situation that I’m in. I don’t know how I’ll do that, but I know how I’ll start. Right now I’ll make myself some chamomile iced tea, and I’m gonna get back to doing my work, and I’m gonna get as much of it done as I can before I go to sleep. And if I have to stop doing my work for some lame reason from my parents, I’ll tell them that I’m too busy doing my work and that I will appreciate it if they left me alone.
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